Argh.

Shit. I experienced something really crappy today. And the worst part is that I can't get it out of my head, because it seems to be a thing I really can't control. It's a thing I really, really hate, mostly because I feel like it's inhibiting be so much in those types of settings. It just seems ¨so unfair, so unneccessary. And I don't know what to do about it. Everytime I get that sneaky feeling coming over me, I try all I can to ignore it and say: Not today, no, it's not gonna happen again today. But it seems like willpower just isn't enough to crack this one. And I don't know what it is about the situation that triggers it either. And I don't know what to do about it. It makes me throughly upset and angry with myself, even though I know that's not going to help one little bit. I'm just really frustrated. I need something to cure this, and I need it fast. Please.